So fragile

Dear Lao gong

U will surely believe that life is very fragile.. One moment u r standing just next to us and the next moment u r gone forever .. As for me, I will always leave my love ones with loving words as it might be the last time I'm seeing them. I'm not a pessimistic person.. But during this 2 months, it really make me realise how important it is to treasure our love ones. I don't want to leave this world full of regrets ..

Aunt condition is still not getting any better. I've gotten information from my brother that aunt is suffering from an illness with no caused. In medical terms, it is call "idiopathic", there is no explanations as to how it happens .. it is a rare case, happened to 1.43 out of 1 million people.. Brother said in singapore, there are only 2 to 3 people suffering from this condition. There is no cure to it, she just has to depend on long term steroids to substain her life.. At the moment, doctor will be giving her cyclophosphamide to treat for pulmonary hemosiderosis.. I don't really understand all these medical terms, but managed to goggle them to find out more information. Basically as of now, doctor will be giving her a chemotherapy type of medication, her hair will drop when she is under this medication. Doctor has no choice but to try this on her for the time being to see whether can her body take this medication to control her current situation. As there is no cure to this rare illness, doctor can only give different medications to her and do test on her, which made her something like a "white mouse" in the lab for testing..

I really feel so sad for my aunt .. How can this thing happen to her ?? I already lost u and i don't want to lose anyone anymore . Brother asked me not to worry so much as if can respond to the medication well , nothing will happen to her , she will only suffer from the side effects of medication.. I am really praying very hard for her , i really hope that God could save her .. It really hurts me to see her so helpless there .. I really wish u r here by my side to comfort me and tell me that she will be ok ..

Lao gong last night i've found almost all my primary school classmates on facebook.. felt so happy to find them there .. all the girls have become so pretty and i really couldn't recognise them when i see their pictures.. How time flies .. still remember the days when we are in primary school and now 18years later, all of us changed.. I really hope to meet up with them in the next gathering ..

I really miss ur smile and ur laughter.. It always brightens up my day .. Days are always so gloomy without u .. i still remember we are a very childish couple. We like to tickle each other and make fun of each other. Still remember u always believe that if a guy is afraid of tickling means he is scared of his wife... therefore u always tried to control yourself when i tickle u .. but i never failed to make u laugh out loud .. really love the way u laugh and the wrinkles forming at the tip of your eyes .. U r so cute .. Whenever we have meals in restaurants , we always disturb each other by playing 'leg wars' under the table .. i will never forget whenever u lose the 'leg wars' game, u will always pull up my legs and tickled till i surrender .. We are always so childish and don't really care how people look at us .. i really enjoy the times when we are together ..

I was watching this "I'm Yours" music video by Jason Mraz .. a beautiful song u always tried to learn and sing to me .. it was so sweet ..  I always love this song , especially when u sing this song for me.. i will never forget how u touched my heart..

Lao gong .. enjoy this song .. I'm yours ..