Dear lao gong
At this very moment a year ago , is the day we parted. I never thought that i could never see you again. I still remember very clearly that we were sitting in the living room at my home, watching tv, snacking and u were planning what to do on my birthday. I can also remember how tired you are after duty on the previous night. It seems like everything just happened yesterday. Didn't know that it's already been a year.
I'm sorry that i've not written for the past months. Been struggling hard, trying to live life without u, getting back my usual routines, opening out to my circle of friends, trying to be as cheerful and optimistic as ever, keeping myself busy.. No matter how hard i try, it's still so hard. Maybe it's getting a bit better with my busy schedules. But at the end of the day, you will still be running in my mind. I've been trying my very best not to look at your photos whenever i think of u. But i just couldn't. Tears still flow whenever i see your face. How i wish u were still around with me.
I really hate this feeling of missing you everyday. I felt so miserable. No one can understand how i feel. I feel so lost without u. I have to do everything on my own. I feel helpless. I am feeling really tired. So tired to force myself to be happy everyday...
Tomorrow, will be a year since u left all of us. Still can't accept this truth. I don't know why this will happen to me. My heart will always sink whenever i go to places that we've been before. Scenes of our happy moments will flash across my mind. How long will these torturing stuff haunt me ? I think they will always be here throughout my whole life. My life, never be completed without u ...
I really missed ur hug .. I always feel so safe when i was in your arms... I love you, i always will. No one can ever replaced you. U r the most special person in my life.. dearest to me. So please, wait for me...
