Dear lao gong
It's my off day today .. and your very kind classmate of yours , May, brought me to visit u at the cemetery. She is really nice .. a very busy and strong woman with 3 kids .. will never fail to fetch me to visit u every month. Really got to thank her , if not i wouldn't be able to visit u that often. Well, i've gotten my licence now, which means i can drive over to keep u company during my off days...
We know u love smoking and drinking. But i think u will hate alcoholic drinks now as that's what causes u to leave this world. We've lighted a cigarette for u to smoke at ur grave. Hope u will enjoy it... Next round, we will bring u a packet of ur favourite Marlboro Menthol light..
Seems that there are still friends who come by to visit u .. cos' whenever i was there, there will be fresh flowers on your tombstone... wondering who are they .. I really wanna thank them for taking some time to pay u a visit. All of us are still feeling so heartbroken with your sudden departure. I guess most of your friends have started to accept the truth... Cos' life still has to go on .. For all of them, losing a good friend like u is really a pity. And yet, there's nothing we can do.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
PASSED!
Dear lao gong
Finally .. after 5 months of driving lessons ... i've managed to pass my driving test ! Feels good .. don't need to drag myself to attend driving lessons during my off days... Pretty nervous during the test but luckily managed to pull through .. Now i'm a qualified driver. I know this is what u want. Still remember u've told me to get a licence asap so that i can be the driver and u can be the passenger .. I know u will be happy for me, but too bad i can't be your driver to drive u around ...
Bella is 8 and a half months old .. very mischievous yet cute. She never fail to brighten up my day .. whenever i was sad thinking about u .. Bella will put a smile on my face. I guess without her .. i wouldn't be breathing at this point of time ...
Finally .. after 5 months of driving lessons ... i've managed to pass my driving test ! Feels good .. don't need to drag myself to attend driving lessons during my off days... Pretty nervous during the test but luckily managed to pull through .. Now i'm a qualified driver. I know this is what u want. Still remember u've told me to get a licence asap so that i can be the driver and u can be the passenger .. I know u will be happy for me, but too bad i can't be your driver to drive u around ...
Bella is 8 and a half months old .. very mischievous yet cute. She never fail to brighten up my day .. whenever i was sad thinking about u .. Bella will put a smile on my face. I guess without her .. i wouldn't be breathing at this point of time ...
Sunday, April 10, 2011
It's 10 April 2011
Dear lao gong
This day , 10 April 2009 , is a Good Friday . This is the day when we first met . It's not a love at first sight thingy .. But we just clicked. We have common interest .. pretty much the same type of character that we looked for in a relationship ..And many things happened. Life is unpredictable . Lots of sweet memories .. We laughed, we cried, we have small arguments, we celebrated, we enjoyed, we shared, we planned, we did loads of stuff together. But then, time is not enough. Fate left me a broken heart.
This day, when i met u, my whole life changed. U were the best and u gave me ur best. No deny to that. Though u can be playful and immatured sometimes, but u always put me as your number one priority. I'm really flattered. Thank you for giving me your all. U always tell me I am special and i'm so different from the others. U told me that i'm the one for u. I'm not sure what have i done that made u say this. I reciprocated. I've given my best and my all to you too. U've made me a happy woman ..
As what people always say, happy moment doesn't last forever. Well.. true enough it really doesn't. And happy moments are so short .. at least that's what i felt. I really envy my surrounding friends with a loving husband and watching their children grow up. And whenever i'm out, I was jealous when i see happy families. I really don't understand why it is so unfair. All my life, i'm in pursuit of happiness. I've made it .. why can't i continue to be happy? Is life really that UNFAIR? I really hate myself and my life now...
I always love going out with u .. I love to go for walks , window shopping , browsing at stuff in the supermarket .. Since u have left, things changed. I don't really like to go out in the day. Cos' i really dread to see happy families and loving couple. They make me feel inferior. During my off days, I will stay at home to look after Bella. I hate going out to face the world. But i have no choice if i got to go to work. I will always look down or look outside the window. I guess i still need to take time to get used to going out without u..
Since u've left, i've changed. I used to be a happy go lucky person and cheerful person all the time. Now, i'm always moody. I still try my best to be the original me when i'm out with my friends. I laughed, i create jokes and i tried to act cute sometimes. My close friends will see the difference in me. They know i've tried very hard and they have given me encouragements. U r my antidote. Well.. i guess i will never be cured since the antidote is gone forever ... =(
This day , 10 April 2009 , is a Good Friday . This is the day when we first met . It's not a love at first sight thingy .. But we just clicked. We have common interest .. pretty much the same type of character that we looked for in a relationship ..And many things happened. Life is unpredictable . Lots of sweet memories .. We laughed, we cried, we have small arguments, we celebrated, we enjoyed, we shared, we planned, we did loads of stuff together. But then, time is not enough. Fate left me a broken heart.
This day, when i met u, my whole life changed. U were the best and u gave me ur best. No deny to that. Though u can be playful and immatured sometimes, but u always put me as your number one priority. I'm really flattered. Thank you for giving me your all. U always tell me I am special and i'm so different from the others. U told me that i'm the one for u. I'm not sure what have i done that made u say this. I reciprocated. I've given my best and my all to you too. U've made me a happy woman ..
As what people always say, happy moment doesn't last forever. Well.. true enough it really doesn't. And happy moments are so short .. at least that's what i felt. I really envy my surrounding friends with a loving husband and watching their children grow up. And whenever i'm out, I was jealous when i see happy families. I really don't understand why it is so unfair. All my life, i'm in pursuit of happiness. I've made it .. why can't i continue to be happy? Is life really that UNFAIR? I really hate myself and my life now...
I always love going out with u .. I love to go for walks , window shopping , browsing at stuff in the supermarket .. Since u have left, things changed. I don't really like to go out in the day. Cos' i really dread to see happy families and loving couple. They make me feel inferior. During my off days, I will stay at home to look after Bella. I hate going out to face the world. But i have no choice if i got to go to work. I will always look down or look outside the window. I guess i still need to take time to get used to going out without u..
Since u've left, i've changed. I used to be a happy go lucky person and cheerful person all the time. Now, i'm always moody. I still try my best to be the original me when i'm out with my friends. I laughed, i create jokes and i tried to act cute sometimes. My close friends will see the difference in me. They know i've tried very hard and they have given me encouragements. U r my antidote. Well.. i guess i will never be cured since the antidote is gone forever ... =(
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Things i miss doing with u ..
Dear lao gong
Ever since u were gone .. there are so many things i miss doing with u . Though some are very minor stuff .. but i do enjoy doing anything with u . Well .. I miss ..
whenever i think of the happy times we've shared , i always smile .. but whenever i think of the day that u left me , it was really a nightmare. I feel so scared .. so scared that u left me alone in this world. I really wish we could do all these stuff again. I know it's all wishful thinking , and it can never come true..
Ever since u were gone .. there are so many things i miss doing with u . Though some are very minor stuff .. but i do enjoy doing anything with u . Well .. I miss ..
- watching tv on our bed together
- doing nothing at home during our off days
- watching movies
- clubbing
- having breakfast in the morning in our off days
- talking lame stuff
- jogging
- scrubbing each others back
- giving u a good massage
- surf the web
- going for holidays
- slacking
- ktving
- chilling out
- snacking
- having late night suppers
- eating cheesecakes
- sharing food with u
- gossiping
- making fun of each other
- slow walk in the park
whenever i think of the happy times we've shared , i always smile .. but whenever i think of the day that u left me , it was really a nightmare. I feel so scared .. so scared that u left me alone in this world. I really wish we could do all these stuff again. I know it's all wishful thinking , and it can never come true..
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)