我已经独自帮你走了 3 and a half yrs. 感觉好累。 sometimes really feel like giving up. But 我不可以.
Moving on .. 都那么久了。我不应该死捉着你不放。everytime I wanna put it down .. seems so difficult. I dunno y. 不是我不要放,我不知道为什么我总是放不下。
Dad got admitted to hosp today at SGH. Conditions seem bad. Results out tmr. I am feeling very lost. I dun know how am I going to take it but ive prepared myself for the worst.
心理的病还是没医好。went SGH to visit dad in the afternoon. I had flashback and tremors on the morning I went to identify ur body at the mortuary. I remembered so clearly ur pale injured face and bandage over your head. I could not feel u , cos u r behind a glass window. I could only see u from far. 最候一次的触摸,都没有。那是我一生的遗憾。today, at the moment when I pass by the mortuary block, I feel like breaking down. I dunno who to tell and what to say. I don't wan ppl ard me to worry for me. I am suppose to grow stronger. . I am no 弱者。
No one to talk to. I am feeling really lost. If only u r with me now.. 好想念你温暖的拥抱。is everything really ok or 我在欺骗自己?
These 3 yrs I grow a lot and learn a lot. At times I do feel really down. I learnt to curb my feelings and probably grow stronger. And I am a little happier with good frens and love around me. I am really thankful and grateful to them to accept what I am and who I am.
接受事实。。好难好南。我很喜欢欺骗自己。告诉自己明天会更好。感觉好难受。如果可以一了白了,那该多好? 我知道这不是办法。do u feel me?
