Perfect couple

Dear lao gong

U always told me that we are a perfect couple and we are meant for each other .. U said that u r so glad that u have found someone of your type , someone who loves u so much , someone who will take care of u , someone who will do anything for u , someone who doesn't mind about your past , someone who always support u no matter what u do .. thank u for always being proud of me as your wife .. I'm proud of u too .. U r always that someone so special and dear to me.

I was having ice-cream a while ago .. suddenly thought of u .. whenever we have ice-cream together, we will always share either a cone or a cup .. cos' u said that if we share ice-cream we won't get fat easily .. It was sweet, esp. when we fight for the ice-cream like kids .. Ice-cream is always my favourite .. even though u don't really like ice-cream, but u will always eat with me cos' u know i like it .. now i guess i have to wait for Bella to grow up to share with me.

Last night, i dream of u again . But i can't really remember much after i woke up .. I can only remember that dream was quite weird and ridiculous .. cannot really figure out much ..

This afternoon, i went to hospital to visit my aunt again.. she seems a bit better.. Pls let her get well soon !! On the way back in the evening, i went to Kiddy Palace at Toa Payoh to shop for some stuff for Bella .. I spent quite a lot .. i bought a rocking chair for Bella , some toys and a pillow for her .. Hmm.. gonna be broke soon .. but it's ok.. i dun mind having lesser meals a day and eat simple food , as long as Bella is happy !! I had lots of paper cuts on my fingers while trying my best to open out the big big box .. sob sob ! Luckily,  I managed to fix up the rocking chair on my own with the instruction manual .. luckily it is easy to fix cos' i'm always an idiot to all these stuff .. I put Bella on the rocking chair .. seems like she is loving it and playing with the toys that i hang on the rocking chair .. really wish u could see how cute she is.

After u were gone I always asked myself, y must i make things so difficult for myself.. i always got so many things to worry .. worry about our baby, my parents , my house , my work and my life .. Am i asking too much ? I only want a very simple life .. with a decent job, enough to survive .. i only want happiness .. but it's really so hard to get and so far to reach .. My definition of happiness is with u around , watching Bella grow up with me .. However, this is one happiness that God will never fulfill me .. why ? i guess no one can answer me that ..