U r a proud daddy

Dear lao gong

These are some pictures i've taken yesterday.. Bella is one month old already .. She is growing everyday.. getting cuter and prettier each day . I know u can see us from heaven .. I know u wish u carry her, touch her and talk to her but u can't .. Bella really hope that her daddy will come back .. Everybody said our little princess is very cute, u will be very happy if u hear that ..

I know u love children. I can see how u enjoy playing and talking to ur nephews and niece. U always tell me that next time we must have more than 2 kids .. i still can remember how happy u were when u know that i'm pregnant. U showed me extra care, remind me to take my meals, fetched me back from work, let me have more rest and do whatever u can to take good care of me. Thank u for being such a good husband.. I will always remember how much love u have given me.

U have planned to be the disciplinary master and I being the loving mother for Bella .. U said u will teach her what are the correct things she should do and educate her .. I guess now i have to be a daddy and mummy for Bella ..

Yesterday i opened ur laptop and went through ur documents.. U know i usually don't do that cos' it's ur stuff and i respect ur privacy. I've saw u keeping a lot of photos of us in ur documents.. tat's really sweet.. I've also found some word documents that u've saved with the msn conversation between u and ur ex girlfriend. I knew that ur ex gf really hurt u a lot, i've read through all of them, all were very hurtful words. I can imagine how heartbroken u r at that point of time. My heart bleeds. But i really got to thank her for leaving u, if not, i wouldn't have found u..

Last night, i dream of u again .. I dreamed that we were resting on our bed in the room, watching tv and doing the things that we like to do... Your touch, your warm hug, ur face and ur body were so real..  The moment i open my eyes i can't see u .. I really hoped that i won't wake up from my dream ..  It was a very sweet dream, the sweetest ever, since u've left.

We are a very simple couple and we led a simple life . We don't buy fancy clothes nor we visit posh restaurants.. even if there is special ocassions, we don't spend much. Most of the time we stayed at home to spend time with each other. Due to my shift work, i have to work on most weekends.. Therefore if we got the time to spend with each other, we will make full use of it. We really cherish our off days together.. We have also promised each other to save as much as we can for our future home, our Bella and our holiday trips.. I know u always complain that i have to work on weekends while u r off and on weekdays i'm off but u got to work. Thinking back, we don't really spend a lot of time together, but we really make full use of it whenever we have the chance. Time was really short, but it was indeed very sweet.

Life is so different without u .. i'm still trying my best to accept the truth. Truth hurts, tat's really true. But i don't have any choice.. It's gonna be a long tiring journey for me.. When will I make it to the finishing point? I really don't know..