My wish

Dear God,
My name is Mcleen,
and I live here on Earth,
and as far as I’ve been told,
whatever I want,
I should ask you first.
I really don’t know much about you,
only what I’ve heard some people say,
they say you are something really magical,
and whenever I’m sad,
you’ll make it go away.
“Well”, if you can really hear me,
there’s something I want to discuss,
but promise you wont tell anyone,
just keep it, between the two of us,
I’ve been feeling a strange pain inside,
almost every single day,
it all started about a month ago,
when my hubby went away.
They said that you took him far away,
to a very special place,
they said I shouldn't cry or worry,
cause someday,
I’ll see my hubby's handsome face.
I don’t care what they say,
they don’t know what’s in my heart,
all I know is that my hubby is gone,
and it’s tearing me apart.
“Okay”, let me take a deep breathe,
and tell you what I want to say,
just be a little patient with me,
I’m just learning how to pray,
I want to make a deal with you,
and I hope that I'm not misunderstood,
I want you to give my hubby back to me,
and I promise, to always be good,
I know that sometimes I don’t listen
and I can behave very bad,
but I promise to stop now,
if you let me see my hubby,
I miss him so very much,
I just don’t know what to do,
I want to hug him,
kiss him,
touch him,
and wait for him after work,
what about when Christmas comes,
who will buy me presents?
What about when Bella grows up,
who to teach her  the right things?
If you can really hear me, can you help me?
cause I don’t understand,
how can my hubby be here with me one day,
and the next, his life is in your hands?
Who told you that you can have him?
Did you ever think of me?
Did you ever think of his mommy,
and how lonely, she would be?
I don’t mean to yell at you,
or disrespect you, in any kind of way,
I’m just feeling very hurt and angry,
cause my hubby has gone away!
“What was that you said”?
I think I hear you speak,
You say my hubby is in a beautiful place,
where only good people meet,
You say that you’ll watch over him,
as he watches over me.
You say you’ll never leave him alone,
and by his side, you’ll always be?
“Well”, if that’s the case,
I guess it will be alright,
that my hubby spends some time with you,
until we reunite.
Although it’s still not clear to me,
the reason why he’s gone,
I feel a little better now,
knowing that he is safe in your arms,
“ok”, it’s getting pretty late,
and I want to go to sleep,
but there’s just one wish I want to make,
and I pray you grant it just for me,
I know that it’s impossible,
you give me back my hubby, right now,
but could you make it sunshine again,
when my hubby was still around.

Amen, Love Mcleen