Happy birthday to me

Dear lao gong

It's past 12 midnight .. happy 28th birthday to me .. still remember last year when we celebrated our birthday. U did a self made birthday card to me with all the love notes in it and our photos.. It really touch my heart. cos' it's the first time a guy ever made a DIY gift for me.. though simple .. but really shows how much u love me .. we had simple celebration in your room. U bought a nice cake and a champagne to celebrate.. really heart warming.. and the sweetest birthday ever which i will remember forever.. now i can never get the chance to celebrate with u again.

Tomorrow morning i will pay u a visit at the cemetery again .. i will bring a cake along too .. i will sing myself a birthday song and blow the cake with u .. i will make a birthday wish . i know this wish will never come true.. it will be a lonely and saddest birthday ever .. things will never be the same again without u ..

A lot of people told me time can heal all wounds... i know it does .. and it will happen.. but i will really leave a deep deep scar in my heart that will stay forever with me .. A lot of people also said that u will be up there watching and taking care of me and Bella.. if really there is a chance , i rather u stayed here with us to take care of us .. Your presence really mean a lot to me ..

It's so nice to see my ex colleagues, Sharmaine, Angela, Addy and Tze Xuan standing outside my door at 11.30pm.. they came down to celebrate my birthday with me. It's been a very long time since i last saw them.. really want to thank them for making an effort down cos' they lived quit far from me .. at least i was not at lonely for a moment ..

Ever since u were gone .. night time was so lonely and scary to me .. Almost every night u will sleep close by my side .. How i wish time could stood still during the moment we hug tightly and sleep together .. i know the day would never come .. but i know one day i will join u up in heaven .. will u wait for me ??