"Baby I love u" are the words that u will tell me everyday.. and everytime i will reply back saying "i love u too"... 15 august is the last time i've heard u say baby i love u .. it is the last time u hear me say i love u too ..
16 august 4.40am is the day u passed away .. At 9.30am i was at the mortuary, going to identify your body. At that moment i still refused to believe that u r gone. I was telling myself it it not true, it's not happening to me and it's just a dream. In the mortuary room, i saw u. I saw u lying unconsciously, ur eyes closed, with bandage on ur head and some bruises on ur face. Ur body was covered with a white blanket and ur lips was so pale. I can't believe what i've saw, i broke down and cry.. i couldn't stop crying, still refused to accept the fact that u r gone. U r a fine young man, with hopes and dreams for our future.. Accident occured at 4am in the morning, and within just 40mins, u left all of us.. U have lived for 32 years, a knocked on ur head separated u from all of us.. It was just too fast,, I guess ur injuries were just too serious, laceration of ur left brain and fractured skull in the caused of ur death.. I can't imagine how painful it is for u during the last 40 mins of ur life.. i've been to the accident scene, i can see still lot of dry blood clots on the grass, the place where u landed.. U've lost so much of blood.. I felt so hurt... it's just so scary.. Life is so fragile. From that day onwards, i can never hear u saying "baby i love u" anymore...
Yesterday, ur ex classmate told me that she dreamt of u the night before.. She dreamt that u told her u love to see the way i eat noodles. This was so true! i always have the habit to pull my noodles high up with my chopsticks. U said that i looked so silly eating this way. In the dream, u were eating minced pork noodles with ketchup.. this is ur all time favourite food which i always find it weird, cos' usually people will eat with chili, not ketchup. Both of us find it spooky, cos' u never told ur ex classmate that u like minced pork noodles with ketchup or told her that u love to see the way i eat noodles. U also told ur ex classmate to hug me and lend me a shoulder to cry on whenever i need it.. I will do that. Even though i've never seen her before and only chatted with her a few times on facebook, she is a nice lady, a very truthful friend. And even though u just recently gotten back in contact with her, u've told her a lot of things, I know she is a good listener, she understands u well too. She has given me a lot of support when i talked to her .. We will be meeting up on wednesday to visit u in the cemetery .. I will be bringing some plastic flowers tat my aunt bought to decorate ur place ..
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