dear lao gong,
here's a photo of our baby bella taken on 12 aug and i've mms u .. when u received it, u told me how cute she is and set her on wallpaper on ur iphone.
it's raining in the morning .. so cold when i wake up .. how i wish we could hug tightly under the blanket .. but i can never get your warm hug again. everyday i will pray that it won't rain in the morning and late evening cos' these are the time when u will go to work and come back home. in the afternoon, i will pray that the sun won't be so hot so that when u travel, u won't be tanned under the sun .. As u are riding bike, it is very dangerous to ride under the rain and i wouldn't want u to fall sick.. now , it doesn't matter whether it rains or shines..
lao gong this morning me and aunt have already bathe baby bella .. her appetite increased.. now she drinks 3 and a half scoops of milk ... dun worry , she is growing healthily.. now she is passing motion .. but just now after we bathe her, she vomitted out all the milk, i was so worried and cried.. bella was so scared and she cried too , luckily she is ok .. she is very ok now...
Tomorrow my brother will fetch me to visit u at the cemetary .. i will bring baby bella to visit u after her full month. ur god sister will bring her hubby and her baby to visit u too .. i've chatted a lot with ur god sister , she is really a nice person and understands u a lot.. she is also giving me a lot of support.u r really lucky to have a nice sister like her.
I've called mother yesterday to check whether she is ok. I'm very worried for her cos' she is staying alone at home. She has went back to work yesterday.. she asked me to stay over in the weekend to accompany her and wait for u to come back home to see us. I will do that for her.. this weekend i will be staying over in our room. Please come back to visit us. Bella will be staying at our yishun house. i really would like to give u a warm hug and a goodbye kiss...
on 2nd august, u accompanied me to kk hospital early in the morning to welcome the birth of our baby girl. u've took 1 week of leave from your busy schedules just to take care of us. Giving birth is not easy , we've waited from 7am till 7.56pm for our baby girl to come out. during the process, u have really given me a lot of support and asking me to push all the way and don't give up .. i listened to u and nearly tore off your clothings , so sorry lao gong. when our baby girl comes out, i can see the tears of joy from your eyes. u can't keep ur eyes off her and keep taking photos of our baby . Throughout the 3 days stay in the hospital, u've accompany me from morning till night. U went home late and came down early in the morning. i knew that u r tired, but u still make the effort to come down to visit us. i can still remember the first time u feed our baby and how u change the diapers for her. After we are discharged, u've stayed with us in my house to take care of us.. These moments really warms my heart.. time is really short.. God took u away from us when bella is just 2 weeks old... how cruel ...
After your departure, i've get to know many of your friends and camp mates.. they're really nice people, giving me the support and help that i need. i've chatted with some of them in facebook and they've asked me not to give up. I will give them the information of your location once the tombstone is ready so that they can come visit u.
Life is really very different without u in my life.. I've lost hopes and given up on many things. we've no chance to watch movies, eat delicious food, watch tv, going for exercises and do many other things together anymore.. it's really a pity.
I will call ur god sister Jie too cos' she will also be my jie. She has told me many things about u and giving u many advises that u will listen. She has told me how heartbroken u r when Vanessa broke up with u . I know that Vanessa is ur very first love. Both of u did plan to get married. I've read ur email from her that u have saved in 2006. U've done so many romantic stuff for her. I'm not jealous, i really envy her..
Even though u r not a romantic guy, but u r a caring and loving hubby. I really love every part of u and all the things u've done for me. U always like to remove ur t-shirt in front of the mirror to admire ur own body. U always told me that u r good looking and fit. Everytime my reply to u is "ok lah". But in my heart, i really feel that u r cute and sexy..
The last thing u have brought for me is a anti-stretch mark cream. After giving birth, u know that i'm very worried about my own body and afraid that i won't be sexy anymore. I can still remember u told me that my thighs and arms are ok, except that my waistline is stil very large. I've showed u my stretch marks and u said that u will by the cream for me.. U also promised me that we will go out for jogs after my confinement to regain my figure.
After giving birth, my whole body aches cos' i've used a lot of energy to push the baby out. After i was discharged from the hospital, u give me shoulder and leg massage everyday without fail.. Now my back aches, but u will not be able to massage me anymore.
After a day of hard work, u like to lie down in bed to watch tv and relax. In the past, we used to do that.. even though on weekends we don't go out and always relax at home, i still love the feeling of being with u, hugging tight and watching tv.
I know that u r under a lot of pressure at work and u feel very tired.. i've told u to tell me what happen at work, at least u will feel better talking out. But u always keep it to yourself cos' u dun wan me to worry as i was pregnant. June and july are busy months for u as u r in charg e of the YOG.. u worked from early morning till late every night. Even on weekends u have to go back for meetings. It really breaks my heart to see u so tired. U've told me that after YOG u have a very tiring course in the army. U need to keep fit and build up ur stamina.. U said that u r getting fatter and need to slim down. Indeed i can see ur stomach bulging stomach.. but it's ok, u r still sexy.
it's raining in the morning .. so cold when i wake up .. how i wish we could hug tightly under the blanket .. but i can never get your warm hug again. everyday i will pray that it won't rain in the morning and late evening cos' these are the time when u will go to work and come back home. in the afternoon, i will pray that the sun won't be so hot so that when u travel, u won't be tanned under the sun .. As u are riding bike, it is very dangerous to ride under the rain and i wouldn't want u to fall sick.. now , it doesn't matter whether it rains or shines..
lao gong this morning me and aunt have already bathe baby bella .. her appetite increased.. now she drinks 3 and a half scoops of milk ... dun worry , she is growing healthily.. now she is passing motion .. but just now after we bathe her, she vomitted out all the milk, i was so worried and cried.. bella was so scared and she cried too , luckily she is ok .. she is very ok now...
Tomorrow my brother will fetch me to visit u at the cemetary .. i will bring baby bella to visit u after her full month. ur god sister will bring her hubby and her baby to visit u too .. i've chatted a lot with ur god sister , she is really a nice person and understands u a lot.. she is also giving me a lot of support.u r really lucky to have a nice sister like her.
I've called mother yesterday to check whether she is ok. I'm very worried for her cos' she is staying alone at home. She has went back to work yesterday.. she asked me to stay over in the weekend to accompany her and wait for u to come back home to see us. I will do that for her.. this weekend i will be staying over in our room. Please come back to visit us. Bella will be staying at our yishun house. i really would like to give u a warm hug and a goodbye kiss...
on 2nd august, u accompanied me to kk hospital early in the morning to welcome the birth of our baby girl. u've took 1 week of leave from your busy schedules just to take care of us. Giving birth is not easy , we've waited from 7am till 7.56pm for our baby girl to come out. during the process, u have really given me a lot of support and asking me to push all the way and don't give up .. i listened to u and nearly tore off your clothings , so sorry lao gong. when our baby girl comes out, i can see the tears of joy from your eyes. u can't keep ur eyes off her and keep taking photos of our baby . Throughout the 3 days stay in the hospital, u've accompany me from morning till night. U went home late and came down early in the morning. i knew that u r tired, but u still make the effort to come down to visit us. i can still remember the first time u feed our baby and how u change the diapers for her. After we are discharged, u've stayed with us in my house to take care of us.. These moments really warms my heart.. time is really short.. God took u away from us when bella is just 2 weeks old... how cruel ...
After your departure, i've get to know many of your friends and camp mates.. they're really nice people, giving me the support and help that i need. i've chatted with some of them in facebook and they've asked me not to give up. I will give them the information of your location once the tombstone is ready so that they can come visit u.
Life is really very different without u in my life.. I've lost hopes and given up on many things. we've no chance to watch movies, eat delicious food, watch tv, going for exercises and do many other things together anymore.. it's really a pity.
I will call ur god sister Jie too cos' she will also be my jie. She has told me many things about u and giving u many advises that u will listen. She has told me how heartbroken u r when Vanessa broke up with u . I know that Vanessa is ur very first love. Both of u did plan to get married. I've read ur email from her that u have saved in 2006. U've done so many romantic stuff for her. I'm not jealous, i really envy her..
Even though u r not a romantic guy, but u r a caring and loving hubby. I really love every part of u and all the things u've done for me. U always like to remove ur t-shirt in front of the mirror to admire ur own body. U always told me that u r good looking and fit. Everytime my reply to u is "ok lah". But in my heart, i really feel that u r cute and sexy..
The last thing u have brought for me is a anti-stretch mark cream. After giving birth, u know that i'm very worried about my own body and afraid that i won't be sexy anymore. I can still remember u told me that my thighs and arms are ok, except that my waistline is stil very large. I've showed u my stretch marks and u said that u will by the cream for me.. U also promised me that we will go out for jogs after my confinement to regain my figure.
After giving birth, my whole body aches cos' i've used a lot of energy to push the baby out. After i was discharged from the hospital, u give me shoulder and leg massage everyday without fail.. Now my back aches, but u will not be able to massage me anymore.
After a day of hard work, u like to lie down in bed to watch tv and relax. In the past, we used to do that.. even though on weekends we don't go out and always relax at home, i still love the feeling of being with u, hugging tight and watching tv.
I know that u r under a lot of pressure at work and u feel very tired.. i've told u to tell me what happen at work, at least u will feel better talking out. But u always keep it to yourself cos' u dun wan me to worry as i was pregnant. June and july are busy months for u as u r in charg e of the YOG.. u worked from early morning till late every night. Even on weekends u have to go back for meetings. It really breaks my heart to see u so tired. U've told me that after YOG u have a very tiring course in the army. U need to keep fit and build up ur stamina.. U said that u r getting fatter and need to slim down. Indeed i can see ur stomach bulging stomach.. but it's ok, u r still sexy.
I know u have bought some insurance from AIA. Ur mum did remind me to settle ur claims for the baby. I know u dun like to buy insurance as u've said to me is a waste of money. I bought quite a lot of insurance for myself, u said tat i was very kiasu. But i feel tat insurance is important. I can't contact ur agent, Galdys. Therefore, i've contacted my agent, Jason, to help me out. He was very shocked to hear the news but he offered to help me. He is very helpful. He said he will settle everything for me and ask me not to worry. Lao gong, rest assured that i will open a bank account for the baby and i will pass all the money to Bella.
I know that you like girls with long hair and bangs. Just before i give birth, i've went to the salon to cut my very very long hair to shoulder length. You said that short hair doesn't suit me, but i still have to cut because it's will be difficult to manage during my confinement. U understand my point and let me cut. Lao gong, since u like me to have long hair, i won't cut my hair shorter after confinement, i will keep it long just for you.
One of my aunt suggested to get a counsellor for me. She is worried that i sink into deep depression cos' i keep crying everyday.. I'm still thinking whether i need ..
Due to your stressful work, u've never stopped smoking. i've always told u smoking is bad for health and a waste of money. U promised me that u will quit one day.. i know u have been making efforts to quit, but u just can't cos' u r just too stress. I can understand, therefore i didn't stress u to quit smoking. Sometimes u told me that u r very good boy as u have tried to stop smoking for a few days, but i didn't encourage u and still pour cold water on u by saying that "aiya it's only a while lah , u will continue back". i'm so sorry that i said that. I should have encourage u rather than saying these crude things.
Lao gong, no one will ever replace u in my heart. U r always my number 1 ..
Lao gong, no one will ever replace u in my heart. U r always my number 1 ..
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