Death ..

Dear Lao gong

Now i know that death is not scary at all ...

Losing someone u love is so scary .. it is the scariest thing in the world... it's so scary till no matter where u hide, u still can't avoid it .. I believe u feel the same way too .. To leave me and Bella here, is not a choice that u've made.. I've lost someone whom can't be replaced .. Y did u leave so soon ? Home sweet home .. we will always be here .. waiting for u .

U always know i mean no harm by nagging at u to stop smoking and stop drinking colas.. U know that all these will be bad for ur health.. I know u heard my words, i can see u making an effort to put a stop to all these unhealthy stuff too.. cos' u want to live longer.. 80 .. 90 years old .. to see our baby grow up and to keep me company when we are old ..

Many friends and families stood by me through this hard times.. they gave me lots of support, keep me company , care for me , encourage me ... but .. if only u were around , nothing beats that .. one word from u really beat a million words that they say .. but i really got to thank all of them , without them , i wouldn't have survived and i wouldn't know wat will i do .. they feel heartbroken for me too .. they cried with me .. i really dun want them to worry for me.. i will try my best to put up a strong front ..

"Daddy" will be the first word that i will teach Bella .. I know u will be the happiest daddy in the world .. I talked to Bella everyday .. she is growing up healthily and will be one month old soon next week .. i know if u were still around, u will definitely be happy ..

Superdad ! is what u r in my heart .. i won't forget the first time in the hospital .. the way u look at Bella .. how u fed Bella and how u carry her .. U said to me, no matter how stressful and tired your work is, u always look forward to coming home. Ur stress and worries will go away when u see me and Bella at home.. Lao gong, u have grown up.. from a playful boy to a superdad .. I made the right choice .. u r indeed the best hubby ..