Superwoman

Dear lao gong
Superwoman is wat u think about me after giving birth to our baby.. A few months back we were discussing whether should i go for natural birth or c-section.. I always wanted a c-section but u want me to give birth naturally.. u've given me a lot of reasons.. said that babies who r borned by natural birth will be cleverer, healing period for natural birth will be faster, i will love our baby more by natural birth and it's cheaper giving birth naturally.. U promised me to be on my side when i go for delivery..

Indeed, u keep up to your words.. 2nd August morning, u accompanied me to KK hospital for delivery and stayed with me throughout. still remember before we check in to the hospital, i was so scared that i cried. But u've held my hands and give me assurance and told me don't be afraid cos' u will pray for me.. Though the process of giving birth is so painful, u really stood by me and gave me support. U told your good friends how brave i was and really salute me .. After giving birth to Bella, u took 1 week leave to take care of us. U know how tired i was after delivery, therefore during this one week, u've given all of u to our baby girl. Ur actions really tells me how much u love Bella. U've also knew that I've used all my strength and energy to push our baby out and how much i've been through during the pregnancy.. after birth, my whole body aches like it was going to fall apart. Whenever u r free after taking care of Bella and put her to bed, u will give me a good shoulder, back and leg massage to make me feel better.. Now my body aches too, but no one will ever massage me like u do anymore .. I will never forget how good u've treated me..

Since u've gone, a lot of friends are on my side to accompany me and giving me support .. even my long lost friends and those whom i haven't been contact with have sent me messages to ask me to be strong and take care .. I know they will never understand how painful it is for me, but i'm really thankful for their concern and the encouragement they've given me..

This morning when i woke up, i gave Bella a morning kiss like u always kiss me in the morning.. Bella smiled at me.. for tat moment, i smiled too .. I've never smiled from my heart since the day u left.. u always tells me to talk to Bella as much as possible, so that she will recognise our voice, i will definitely do tat .. A lot of ppl said that Bella is very cute .. guess she has ur looks , she looks as cute as u ..

Last night while i was asleep, aunt covered me with a blanket as it was cold at night .. i started to think of u .. how u will cover me with blanket and keep me warm .. how u hugged me tight and keep me safe .. I always complain to u how noisy u snore at night.. but i really didn't mean it .. now i really missed ur snore cos' i know tat u r safe by my side .. i can't hear u snore anymore .. my heart really hurts so badly tat nothing can be done tor fix it back ...

I know u like to use ur Iphone. Iphone is ur only entertainment besides TV. I always complain and nag at u cos' when i'm with u, u always take out ur iphone to play games. I wanted an iphone too.. so tat we can play games together. U promised me tat u will buy iphone4 for me by the end of this year.. U said u will save up and get iphone4 for me.. now i'm holding ur iphone, i will keep it safe as i know this is one of the things tat u loved...

Lao gong, ur ex classmate, May, has told me some things about u that u've never told me before. She said that u were sad cos' i've treated u very coldly during the days when i was pregnant.. I gave u cold shoulders, stopped u from touching me and didn't give u enough love. She told me tat u went out to ktv sessions with her 3 times. She also explained to me tat there is nothing going on between both of u. Of cos' i know there is nothing going on. I won't blame u for going out with her cos' i understand tat u r bored and needed someone to talk to .. i know u dun wan to tell me ur problems cos' u dun wan me to worry for u.. Lao gong, i really regret giving u the cold shoulders. i know i break ur heart.. how i really wish i could turn back time ..