a little black moth

Dear lao gong
Chinese always believe that if a person passed away, they will transform into some kind of insect to come back to  see their love ones.. Yesterday at about 10pm, while Bella is crying very loudly, suddenly i found a little black moth in my room.. The moth is moving around slowly in the room and climb up the wall.. my aunt tried to blow the moth away but it refused to move and stood stationary on the floor. I believe that u r came back to see us.. at about 12am, the moth went missing.. seems like just vanished into thin air..

Last night, Bella refused to sleep .. she kept crying so loudly that i nearly break down.. i've tried all means to stop her from crying, but she just refused to .. maybe she felt ur presence and crying out loud cos' she dun wan u toI leave us..

Still remember that we've promised to stay with each other till death do us apart. I told u before that i was so afraid of people that i loved leaving me.. be it my mum, dad, aunt, ur mum, my frens or anyone.. U comforted me and said that u will always be on my side no matter wat.. u said that our parents will be getting older and will pass away someday.. u said tat u won't leave me alone here cos' without my parents, i still have u around. I was also worried one day Bella will grow up, get married,  have her own life and won't be staying with us.. however u said that one day our children will leave us when they grow up, they should have their own life.. u told me not to worry cos' i still have u to grow old with.. U promised me to stay with me when our parents or children leave us one day,  but that will not be true anymore.. I will grow old alone.. with no one by my side.. i was so afraid of loneliness.. y did u break ur promise and leave me so soon?? it is really not fair ..