Beautiful people

Dear lao gong

There are so many beautiful people around me.. i guess at this point of time, i am the hot topic to everybody.. A lot of people care for me, keep me company, talk to me and sent me gifts.. I'm really grateful.. Cos' without time, i won't be sitting in my room and writing this blog now.. Now i really know the importance of love from friends and families ..

This afternoon, the father of the Church of Singapore, together with the sister, came by to visit me.. They are really nice .. they talked to me and pray for u and me .. He told me that we are just apart for the time being, when the time comes, i will go up there in heaven to meet u there.. u will be waiting there for me .. i really hope so .. He told me it's ok to grief and be sad at this point of time. He asked me to cry out loud so tat i will feel better. He told me i have to move on after a period of time.. I will try ..

I've received a lovely letter from my good pal, Joanne whom u know, this afternoon .. This letter was very touching and meaningful .. though she was not with me , she felt for me .. Here's some of the contents in the letter:

"Death is a sad an tragic affair
Even when it is long anticipated
But no death is as hard on the living
As the unexpected death of a loved one

Death does not always come with warning
With time to say the sad farewells
Sometimes it comes, unannounced
With no time for even a brief goodbye

There are the saddest of times
When death takes one to dear to us
Without warning, unexpected
And in our grief, we bid our sad farewell"

"Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day.
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear"

"I know it is difficult today to see beyond the sorrow,
but looking back in memory may help comfort you tomorrow.
Hold tight to memories for comfort,
lean on your friends for strength,
and always remember how much you cared about,
May your memories give u strength"

Beautiful words.. really touched my heart ..

However, life is becoming so routine without u by my side .. everyday i wake up, eat breakfast, lunch, dinner and rake care of Bella then sleep. In the past, with u around, i always looked forward to meet u... it's so different everyday with u around .. we laughed , we joked , we shared our views , we have hopes , we have dreams .. ya it's true tat i have to accept this reality and to move forward .. still unable to move , stucked here .. in this dark room .. with a glimpse of hope ..