Mother's love

Dear lao gong

As usual , today i brought Bella over to mother's place.. Bought some prawns and chicken wings for her to cook cos' it's not very nice for her to buy food and to prepare for me every week.. So today we had fried noodles, chicken wings and prawns for lunch. Fried chicken wings and prawns are your all time favourite dish prepared by mother, so are mine. When u were around, we will always fight for chicken wings and prawns just like small kids. But in the end, u will let me have more and put those in my plates. Today 3rd brother came by with his daugher Nica. They played and talked to Bella.

Bella starts to recognise people and places. Whenever me and aunt is not around, she will cry looking for us. When we are nearby , she will feel comfortable and won't cry . Bella is learning how to turn her body when she lies down .. she has been practicing hard & trying to turn her body to the side when she lies down. So now, we must pay special attention to her if not she will turn her body backwards and injured herself.. This morning, Bella let out a loud laugh when i talked to her .. she keeps laughing and making the 'hahaha' sound. It is the first time she made this 'hahaha' sound cos' usually she will just laugh and open her mouth, without making any noise. She's really cute. If u can see her from up above, u will surely be so happy..

Mother put up lots of your pictures in our room. She told me that she will sit in our room everyday, looking at your photographs and talking to u. I can still feel that she is very sad. I feel so sad for her too .. to lose a good son is just too heartbroken.. She keep on repeating and telling me that she has watch u grow up and take care of u for 32 years, but without any illnesses or sickness, u just left us without saying a word. She told me that she can't get to sleep at night cos' she still can't take it that u r not around anymore. It is really sad to hear her telling me these things .

Mother told me that she was very tired , especially she still needs to work at this age. I've advised her not to work full time but maybe take up a part time job. But she said she can't. She told me that she needs the money to pay for her house and the bills. She told me that she is not sure when will she not able to work, but she will work till she can't work anymore. As she is a cook in the company, everyday she will need to cook for about 10 to 12 people in the company .. She said that everyday she needs to go to the market in the morning before work. She told me that everyday she will stress over what food to prepare for them. She is afraid that if she cooked repeated dishes, the people in the company might not like it. Every saturday, 2nd brother and his family will be at her place for dinner , she said that she will stress over what to cook for them too .. I've told her that if she is too tired, she can ask 2nd brother to bring her out for dinners so that she won't need to be so stressful over the weekend. But she said homecook meals are healthier, especially for 2nd brother's sons.

Mother's love is always the greatest. She will do what it takes for her own children. No matter how difficult life is, she will pull through. I know it's never easy for her to raise up 4 boys by herself and u never hear any complains from her. At this age, she should be enjoying her life , but instead , she is grieving over the loss of her youngest son. Lao gong, i will try my best to take care of mother as much as i can. I really hope she can pull through this very difficult moment that she is having now. She is a good mother and i believe God will give her the strength..