Mummy broke down

Dear lao gong

As usual , i will call mother almost everyday to check whether she is ok and whether did she take her meals .. I just called her a while ago, to check out on her.. she is not ok .. she cried .. she said that she miss u a lot .. she can't sleep these few nights ..she told me that every night she has been looking at your photos .. Lao gong, i really dunno what to say to her .. All i can tell her is not to be sad and u r very well up in heaven now.. Mother told me that she will be on MC tomorrow cos' she is having headaches and she felt dizzy . I'm really worried for her now. I wanted to bring her to the doctor now, but she refused and said she just wanted to rest. I really don't know what to say to her, cos' i was afraid that the more i said, the sadder she felt and in the end i will cry with her.. I've informed 2nd and 3rd brother about mother.. they will go visit her tomorrow and over the weekend.

Lao gong, I always mention to u in my blog that i felt very hurt and heartbroken .. But , mother's pain is much worse than me .. U r her dearest and youngest son .. She told me before out of the 4 sons she has , she worried for u the most . She always treats u like a baby , giving u the best and even don't mind u raising your voice at her .. Mother's love is the greatest , no deny about that. After talking to mother, i cried. I can feel the pain in her. Especially she is alone at home. Lonliness is a very scary thing ,  especially when our love ones is gone.

It has been a routine to mother that everyday she will wait for u to come home.. and when u came home late, she will always make sure u reach home safely before she falls asleep. She has been doing this for more than 10years. Since u were gone, u will never be home. I'm sure mother will still wait for u to come home .. she's is really hoping that u will be back one day ..

For now, i'm very very worried for mother. I'm not sure how to help her cos' i can't even help myself now. I guess all i can do now is to keep her company and let Bella play with her.. I understands how she feels.. even though during the day she is happy to see us and talk to us , but a part of her will feel very down at night when she sleeps.. I will pray to God to give her the strength to get well soon .. If u know that mother is not feeling well now, please protect her ..