So Abnormal

Dear lao gong

Till now, i still feel that life is so 'abnormal' without u. Maybe i'm too used to seeing u and talking to u everyday. I am , also too used to depending on u on almost everything. We talked about everything.. about work, personal life , friends , families .. we love to gossip too .. we gossip about everything .. about celebrities  , friends , people walking down the stress and even gossip about each other. Suddenly felt so empty without u , nobody to openly talked to me about everything under the sun . Yes i know i can always talk to my friends and families, but sometimes, i have too personal stuff which is not nice to disclose to others and maybe even if i tell them , they won't understand. Only u , can understand how i feel and what i think ...

When Bella arrives on 2nd august.. u took many pictures of her ... when u reached home that night, u showed mother the pictures u have taken. Mother said u were so happy when u reached home that night even though u were tired after accompanying me throughout the delivery .. U showed mother the photos of Bella .. U told her that she is so cute and pretty. But the reaction that mother give u was that 'like tat call cute?' .. after hearing wat mother said, u were so angry , u went into the room , closed the door and refused to talk to her. Mother knew that u were angry .. but she don't mean to say that .. she said that now Bella is so pretty as she grows day by day ..

Bella's neck is getting stiffer.. whenever i carry her, she will try to sit up on her own .. she loves to practice sitting up .. she will always use a lot of energy to balance herself and she will drool all over when she does that... she is just so cute .. really wish u were around to see that..

In the past, u always pick me up after work whenever u can. U will always try ur best to fetch me back unless u have duties and u have to stay overnight in camp. As i am a floater, i don't have a fixed branch to work in .. Basically u have been to all the branches that i have floated before .. from redhill to tanjong pagar to chinatown to tiong bahru to yishun to woodlands to choa chu kang to kranji .. Everyday u will finish work at about 6pm .. sometimes i have to work till 8 or 9pm in the evening. U will stay in camp to rest or do ur work and will pick me up after i finished mine. I know u r tired after work .. i will always ask u to go back home to rest first and not to pick me up as i can take public transport back. But u told me that as long as u r not super tired, u can still pick me up from work. Hmm.. so nice of u .. i really appreciate that and for what u have done for me.

Waking up in the morning not seeing u is always so not-normal. In the past, i used to see u first thing in the morning.. Life is just so different without u around. Still trying my best to cope with what it is now... what can i do now? I guess i only have to accept what it is now.