Learning..

Dear lao gong

Yesterday I went down to SSDC to register myself as a student there to learn driving.. Need to finish up 25 lessons , per lesson is 2hrs at $71 .. Did some calculations .. total will add up to about $2k plus those additional charges for the necessary tests. Hmm.. pretty expensive. Think these few months i must really save up so that i can complete the course on time. I really have no confidence in driving, but i will try my best and hope that i can do it. I thought of just learning auto cars, but buddy said that learning manual is more useful , at least i can drive both manual and auto car .. so i go for manual driving lessons instead.

I know u always wanted me to learning driving. I am doing that for u and for Bella's sake. If i have licence, I will be able to drive Bella around without having to trouble others or take long time to wait for taxis.. In the past i always tell u that learning driving is just too expensive. I would rather save up the money and used them for tours. Now, without u around, i have no one to depend on but myself. If i get the driving license , i will be able to drive Bella around. My mum has a car which she always park at home and seldom use .. I can always borrow her car to bring Bella out. That's what we did too after u  sold your car. We will borrow from mum to go for outings as bike is too dangerous for me during the time i was pregnant..

A lot of friends ask me whether do i still miss u and think of u after more than 2 months since u were gone. Yup of course i do. Even though i look normal whenever i hangout with my friends and i don't show my emotions out, doesn't mean i have already let go of u. Maybe i can handle and controls my feelings better now. To control my emotions and not showing to my friends and families are really not easy tasks. I still misses u as much, especially when i see happy families and loving couples around . Just so envy them .. i always wonder why i can't have happy moments at all ..

I've cancelled ur 96904866 mobile number. All the other surcharges are waived off by singtel after submitting your death cert. By cancelling ur mobile number means that your voice in the voicemail is gone too. But luckily i still have video that u took of me, with your voice at the background. I really missed your voice .. U always talk  to me in such a gentle way that i will never forget..

Last night i went down to see the MP as every thursday is the meet and greet people session at my area here.. I've wanted to ask the MP for help as HDB wouldn't grant me the Additional Housing Grant of about $30k for our new flat. Even though i wrote in to appeal to HDB, but still in vain. MP wasn't around last night, but i've informed the Grassroots volunteers about my problem. They said they will help to write a letter to HDB and asked me to wait for their reply. Hmm.. really hope that HDB is able to grant this AHG thingy so that i won't need to pay so much every month.

HDB has also sent me a letter of appointment and asked me to go down on 15 nov to sign the housing lease. I need to pay 5% down payment for the house plus stamp fees .. Total will add up to about $18k ... Just checked my CPF account, should have enough for them to deduct from my CPF account.. Then when the house is ready, i will need to pay another 5% ..

Our baby .. today .. 2mths and 27 days old ..

trying to look cool ?

very blur look ..

sticking out her tongue (just learnt from me)

sleepy ...