Eve of Halloween

Dear lao gong

It's saturday today. Eve of Halloween. I guess if u r around, we will be preparing to go out for a Halloween countdown party at night. Really missed the time we have fun and the great parties. My parties will never be the same without u. I really enjoyed the days where we go for drinks in pubs and clubs and party all night long. It just feels so different without u.

Been having very bad backaches lately. Must be because of the long period of carrying Bella and bending down to change diapers. I can still feel a sharp pain at my lower back where i had my epidural when i bend down to do things. Not sure whether is the side effect .. should be nothing so serious.

Nov 2nd is All Souls' Day. All Souls' Day commemorates the faithful departed. From my knowledge, this day should be like a sort of QingMing Festival but in a Christianity way. I will be going to the cemetery to pay u a visit and do some prayers.

I am feeling so sad today. Just got to know from your friend last night through facebook that your colleague , Kenny Chong, is at ICU now. According to him, he has been in coma for a week and he needs the life supporting machine. I read from his wallpost that the doctor asked his families to prepare themselves. Kenny has been coughing for 3 months and it gets so serious that his lungs collapse. I don't know who is Kenny and i never met him before. But he has showed support and encouraged me when u left us. I do not wish that he will join u in heaven so soon. He is still young, same age as me, i am sure he has so many uncompleted missions in his life. If u are with God, please tell him to make Kenny get well soon.

So many incidents happening around me .. i really know how fragile life is. I always take it for granted , especially the people around me. I always think that they are still young and won't leave me so soon. I have understood so many things since u were gone. I won't take things for granted now. People always say "Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, that's why it's call Present". Yeah it's true.. and we will never know what will happen tomorrow.. Just like u .. i don't think u know what happened to u on 16 aug when u left me the night before.

Last night, i read through some of the posts that your friends and colleagues have posted on their walls the day u left everyone. I can feel the sadness in them. They were so sad to lose a friend, a buddy, a brother, a mentor and a family. Everyone was so affected by ur loss. I cried. The messages were just so sad. But since more than 2 months has passed, they should be feeling much better and getting on with their lives. I guess life still has to go on without u. It's easy to say than done. We are so used to seeing u almost everyday , doing all the routine stuff. Without u around, things were just so different and so empty .

I've edited our baby's photo using a web application.. hope u like it ..

Here's something nice for u which i've came across somewhere :

Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul.


From now on, you'll never be alone; even when death itself parts us, I shall remain with you.