Sorry for not writing for the past 3 days as i was busy .. busy packing my own stuff and busy spending the last few days of my maternity leave with our baby .. Finally finished packing my 4 full cupboards of apparels after 2 days .. I still remember the first time u saw so many clothings in my room and the other room.. u nearly fainted. Before going back to work, i've decided to clear out some old and out of fashion clothings.. managed to clear off 40% of the clothes and have some free space. I've thrown away some very old and clothes and for the rest which i wore once or twice, i've packed aside and will send to the salvation army next week during my off day ..
Life is so different now. It is supposed to be very different for us due to the arrival of our baby . And our life are supposed busier with work and taking care of Bella . But it is even more different when u r not around .. I'm so scared of loneliness .. I will return to work on monday. Usually after work, we will meet up for dinners , without u around , nobody will have dinner with me every night when i finished work . It will be tough for me .. hope i can pull through this..
My days are so lonely without u .. No one to share my joy when i'm happy and no one to share my sorrows when i am sad . I really don't know what am i supposed to do. All i know is i have to carry on with me life and believe that TIME can really heal me.
My christian friends told me that when a person dies , his soul will be around for 100days .. The soul will be back with his family and watching over them .. After the 100th day , he will be gone completely as he will be up there in heaven with God. Memories will be gone with the soul too .. I was so sad when i hear this .. Today is the 97th day.. which means only 3 days left before u will really be gone. Not sure whether if it's true. But if really is , it means that i will forget all of us in another 3 days time.. I really don't want u to go .. and i really don't want u to forget us .. do u know how much we love u ?
I brought Bella to the cemetery this morning to visit u as the tombstone is ready .. Can't help to control my emotions when i see your photo at the grave.. I love u , with all my heart. I really hope that we can meet someday.
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I cried when I saw the tombstone. It must have been 100 times harder for u, babe. I know how u feel. Jia you ok? Hope u have a good start at work on Monday. Praying the best for u and Bella. Hugs...
Vincent would be in Heaven right now, where there is no unhappy stuff to bother him.. However, he would still remember you and his off-spring, Bella.
He would forget those unhappy things on earth but he will still know you, and I am sure he still cares for you.
Remember to live well,bring up Bella well. Vincent may not be here on earth but, he is in heaven watching protectively over you.
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