The 100th day since u were gone

Dear lao gong

Today is the 100th day since u were gone and we have been separated for that many days already. How many hundred days can i survive without u ? I really don't have an answer . But i hope we will really meet one day .

It's my off day today . Usually i will sleep till afternoon during my off day and we will go out in the evening . But now, i will wake up very early in the morning to take care of our baby. Now i realise that time is too precious. I have no idea when will i leave everybody in this world so i got to make full use of it before i am gone. In the past, my hobby is sleeping . Now it's not my hobby anymore as i will have plenty of time to sleep after i die...

What is our aim in life ? Mine is a simple one. With a stable job and regular salary so that i can survive in this world .. Yours ? U used to want a simple life too .. as long as life goes on happy for u and your family, u will be contented. However, due to peer pressure , u've changed. U have seen a lot of your friends earning big money and having very well-paid jobs. By comparing with them to your current job, u wanted to have a higher standard of living and hope to earn as much as they do. Therefore, u've become ambitious. U wanted to earn big money in a short period of time to provide me and our baby good life in the future. However, things are not as smooth as what u thought... U've been through many problems and finally u realised that it is not easy to earn big bucks .. and u've changed. I don't mind your past .. who never make mistakes in the past ? As long as u r willing to change, everything will be alright .. This is what i've told u . And u agreed with me and moved on with your life .. u agreed to strive hard for our future with me too... But then, God didn't give u a chance to complete this mission in your life ...

This morning i brought Bella to the doctor again. Cos' last night she has been sneezing non-stop till this morning. Doctor said that she has caught the flu virus as the weather has not been good for the past few days. Doctor has given her some medicine which will make her drowsy . Therefore, today she is not as active as before. Hope she will get well soon. It really hurts to see our baby girl falling sick .

I'm working full shift tomorrow .. and on thursday will be my off day again. Thursday i'll be going for my driving lessons in the morning . Hope that everything will go on smoothly and fine.. There is something i want to tell u ..

能拥有你的爱是我一生最幸福的事。我爱你。