Sleepy Bella

Dear lao gong

Here's bella taken today before i brought her to mother's place .. she is cute rite ? never fail to make my day whenever i looked at here... Bella is sleepy the whole day .. Brought her to mother's place and she's been sleeping the whole afternoon. Mother only managed to play with her for an hour or so .. Mother told me that Bella has lovely smile , just like u when u were a baby .

Mother said she felt pain in her legs when she walks .. I've told her to see a doctor or chinese physicians to check out what's happening, But she refused .. she said that there's nothing wrong with her .. just that she walked too much .. she said that she will be fine after rubbing some ointment on the painful areas ..

Mother told me that 1st brother's room , the master bedroom's aircon is not working .. they've asked technicans to check what's wrong with the air-con. Technician told her that the main motor is not working and they need to change it. He said it will cost about $500 but no guarantee that it would work.. therefore, mother decided to change all the air-cons in the room as it's already quite old. 3rd brother brought her to choose at Gain City .. and mother settled for system 3 inverter which cost her about $3000 including installation fees .. Mother said that the 2 air-cons in her room and our room are working fine .. but since 1st brother's aircon is not working, they need to change the whole system. She said that she has to use her hard-earned money for the air-con .. I wanted to pass her some money for the air-con as it will also be installed in our room .. but she refused to accept and asked me to keep the money for the baby . She said that she still can work and support herself. She told me that she could afford the air-con, just that she felt heartpain as the 2 aircons in our room are working fine , but in the end still need to change.

At mother's place just now , while i was looking out of the kitchen's window .. suddenly i think of u . Everyday u will stand next to  the kitchen's window to smoke . U told me that u do not want to pollute the house with the smell of cigarettes.. therefore u only smoke next to the kitchen's window or in the toilet.. Still remember in the past .. i don't like u to smoke in the toilet when bathing as u will choke me .. ever since i was pregnant, u stopped smoking in the toilet whenever we bathe .. cos' u said that it will be bad for our baby when i inhaled the smoke .. thanks for being so understanding ..

Mother asked me what to do to your clothings that were left in our cupboard. I told her to keep in the cupboard and not to throw away or give it to the others.. she kept telling me that u have so many new clothes that u haven't started wearing and the shirts that u bought for our wedding , u only wore them once .. she said it's really a pity that you are not around anymore. Yup, it's true. It's really a waste and all your clothings are in such good conditions. I told her that after our house is ready .. i will move your clothings to our flat .. Mother also said that the blosters , pillows and beddings are brand new. She purposely bought for us so that we will have brand new stuff when we get married. I told her that i will bring the things over to our new flat .. I can still feel she is still very heartbroken. She keeps telling me that everyday she will sit in your room when she reached home after work. She will look at photos of u that she has placed on the table.

Lao gong .. I had a wish that couldn't be fulfilled .. that is ,  u, me and Bella spending the weekend out together as a happy family .. This will be the greatest regret i have in my life. I know it will and can never be fulfilled ..