Singlehood

Dear lao gong

Life is really hard without u .. Being single and alone without seeing u everyday really breaks my heart .. I'm so used to receiving your sweet messages everyday , meeting u everyday after work and talking to u .. Eating alone without your company and I have no one to listen to my complains .. Still trying my best to be strong in front of my friends , families and colleagues .. I'm so scared being alone.

U've always wanted to be a good daddy and a role model for Bella .. U told me that u wanted teach Bella the correct ways .. U will be the bad guy educating and be firm to Bella and i will be the good guy to sayang her when she gets scoldings from u .. I guess i have to do that all alone .. Really have no idea how to go about doing it, but i will still try my best to nurture and teach her ..

Tomorrow will be a full day work for me .. after work , i'll be going down to Kenny's wake at Jurong .. To pay my last respect to him , that is the least i can do ... I'm off this sunday .. will be visiting mother with Bella ..

Snacking !! is what we both love .. I can have titbits all day without having any proper meals .. Most of the time we will shop at NTUC for our snacks and stock up in the room .. During our off days or everyday after work , we will sit in front of the TV and have our snacks.. It's really fun when we fight over our titbits .. we both love potato chips .. Ever since u were not around , it seemed like i've not eaten any titbits for more than 3 months .. Snacking alone is not fun anymore ..

I'm still learning .. learning how to stand up and learning to be strong .. I'm lucky to have buddy and good friends around to support me .. without them , i wouldn't know what to do . Thank u everyone for the support , i really appreciate the time u've spent with me giving me support and cheering me up. I realised it's a blessing in disguise..