End of 2010

Dear lao gong

Been quite moody this week even though christmas is over.. I guess holiday seasons really affects me a lot.. I was real grumpy too .. whenever my friends or colleagues talk to me .. i will give one word answer instead of being my talkative self. I felt quite bad about my behaviour .. especially my buddy .. he was affected the most. Buddy , if u r reading this .. "so sorry for showing some pek chek attitude to u, i really didn't mean it" .. Please forgive me !!

I'm on childcare leave for the whole of this week.. Though on leave, still quite busy at home.. I've let my aunt go on leave too .. Monday i've after my morning driving lesson, aunt went out shopping after i took over Bella .. Tuesday i have driving lesson .. wednesday stayed at home to take care of Bella so aunt can do some cleaning at home .. and today .. went for my final theory test and driving lessons.. All goes fine .. i've passed my final theory and completed my stage 2 driving .. tomorrow is the end of 2010 .. should be meeting colleagues for dinner and a countdown party after that ..

Last year 2009 , we had a simple meal .. watched a live concert and went to your good friends place for gathering.. though simple .. it was fun .. as long as we spent time together. We had wine and played games till late. I really missed the times where we celebrate ocassions. Though we are both party people, we don't do countdowns in club cos' it will be very packed and we won't enjoy together. We will always prefer to spend time with our friends and families instead ..

2010 .. it's really a year of ups and downs for me . It is supposed to be a very good year for us .. Getting married and welcoming the birth of our baby girl .. And you , getting a promotion .. And we, building a happy family.. I do agree that Good things do come to an end , but i never know it will end so soon . U've left us on 16 august. 16 August 2010 .. the most painful day of my life .. 2 May 2010 .. happiest day of our life when we exchanged our vows .. 2 August 2010 .. the arrival of our beautiful baby girl .. these are the 3 days that will be imprinted into my heart ..  how ironic can life be  ? or is just heaven that is making a fool of me ?

I really hope 2011 will be a better year for me .. I wanted to be happy and feel happy from my heart.. But it doesn't seem to work at this moment no matter how hard i try .. No matter what i do i will think of u . I will think of the things we used to do and the things u used to say to me. It is so hard for me not to think of u .. And i guess i will never forget u .. I still do miss u .. and as time passes by .. i miss u more everyday ..