Today is 16th dec .. it's the 4th month since u were gone.. I miss u a lot .. Absence makes the heart feels fonder .. U r gone forever , only leaving me memories of u . I know u won't be back .. here's our pretty little girl .. photos taken on sunday on our way to mother's place .. Bella can recognise people very well.. she always smiles at me whenever she sees me ..
Wednesday .. i meet up with some friends at Bottletree park for a nice dinner and some beers.. We chilled out and have a simple gift exchange to celebrate christmas in advance.. Bottletree park is one of the place that we wanted to hold our wedding .. But u worried that the weather is too hot for me therefore we chose to have it at Chevrons..
Went to visit you yesterday .. been busy lately. Haven't visit u for 2 weeks. I was on half shift yesterday and your secondary school classmate, May, meet me at my workplace and drove me to the cemetery.. So nice of her , to find time to send me to visit u. She has also introduced me some facial products and i've been using them now. In the past, u always say i didn't do much stuff to protect and care for my face. She has a friend who works for Clarins and i've gotten some products from her at 30% discount. Reaching 30 yrs old in 2 yrs time, it's time for me to really get serious to do some maintenances on my face before it's too late..
A few days ago, there was some news about the Hilton hotel couple. We've discussed about this very sad story when u were around .. The bride wrote to her husband everyday .. telling him that she wouldn't want to be alone in this world and how much she missed him . It was really a tragic love story . I've read the details of her entries in the newspaper .. It was so sad and heartbroken that i cried. I can understand how painful it is .. She never want to move on without her husband. She was brave .. Brave to join her husband in another world. This is the power of love. How i wished i can be like her .. to leave this world , join u in another and live happily ever after. But i can't . I still have Bella to take care. I know u will never forgive me if i were to leave this world... We have to stay apart .. for a period of time .. I will watch her grow. And when i see u one day , i will tell u everything about our baby girl and her growing up stages.. U will definitely be a proud daddy.
I was so not looking forward to Christmas.. And it is the first time in my life that i'm not looking forward to that. Still remember last year i've bought a sling bag for u cos' your current one was quite worn off .. U loved the bag. U said that it's not suitable for u to bring to camp to work as the bag might accidentally get damaged. Therefore u will only bring out when we go out instead of work.. However, u've only used for a few times cos' most of the time u will put everything in your pocket instead of bringing a bag... Now, the bag is sitting in your room .. Always feeling so sad when i looked at the bag cos' it always remind me of our first christmas together .. Never would i thought that this was the last christmas for us...
This morning .. after driving lesson , i went for hi-tea buffet with my buddy and his friend. It's my buddy's birthday today .. therefore we treated him for a nice buffet at Marriott Hotel .. After food .. we went shopping at Takashimaya .. I've bought Bella some cute and pretty new year clothings and bought 3 little angels for u .. I will put it on the tomb the next time i visit u ..
I really want to know where r u .. really miss u a lot..
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