Sorry hasn't been writing for the past weeks .. been busy with work and home and it's been so long since i last on my laptop .. Most of the time i've used my iphone to surf the web .. been real tired .. it's been closed to 7 months since u were gone . Still feeling so heartbroken and i still miss u a lot . Has been hanging out with my friends and colleagues recently for some happy hour drink after work . The feeling is even worse when i get high on alcohol .. Guess i really need a break ..
Last tuesday i've been to the cemetery with Bella to visit u .. How have u been ? I've given u a nice polish and i've put 3 angels to watch over u .. Hope u like it .. Bella is 7 mth 12 days old .. Time really pass by so fast .. in a few months time .. she will be a year old .. It's really great to see her growing day by day .. I know u've missed her .. And i know that u are feeling so hurtful for not being able to watch her grow and carry her in your arms .. Bella is getting cuter .. Now she's learning how to crawl .. She recognises people and keeps calling "papa" everyday .. How i wished u could hear her calling papa .. U will be touched with tears .. I still remember that u told me u nearly cried when u witness the birth of Bella . U said u controlled your tears cos' there are doctor and nurses around .. How egoistic can u be ... But u're forgiven cos' u've told me how u felt ..
Been visiting mother with Bella for the past few Sundays .. Mother is still the same .. Heartbroken .. And sometimes still can't believe the fact that u're gone .. I always believe life is unfair and can't be perfect ! u gain some , u lose some .. The biggest loss in my life is losing u .. No one expected that . Mother always ask me whether have u found your way up in heaven and in Christ arms .. I don't have an answer . I really don't know . Do u still remember us and miss us ? I don't have an answer either .. But i really hope u do. Cos' all of us here .. miss u so much.
Big tragedy happened last friday . Massive earthquake which resulted in a deadly tsunami in Japan . I've watched the news that shows what happened to Japan .. I really can't believe it .. I cried when i watched the news .. Life is just too fragile .. I'm learning to cherish every moment .. learning to be happy which is real difficult .. I felt a difference in me and in my life .. It's tough .. really so tough .. why do i have to learn it by the hardest way .. it's so unfair ! and i really hate it !
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| 3 little angels with u .. |
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| newly bought flowers |
LITTLE BELLA AT 6 MONTHS OLD
1 comment:
I am sure Vincent will be sad to know that you miss him.. He will be more sad that you have to drink so much.. and to miss him more in the process.
For the sake of the little one, please try to cut down on the drinks, I am sure Vincent feels that way too. He drinks usually is for work only.
Watch your health,so that you will be strong for your little one.. More so for Vincent, as he will want you to be healthy.
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