Exactly 2 years , since we parted

Dear lao gong

sorry that i havent been writing. been busy with stuff, trying my very best to move on as much as i could.

a very emotional day today. Especially at this hour, 10pm. Today is exactly 2 years since we parted. This is the day when we kissed goodbye and u left from my home to your house. I  still remember very clearly, your tired eyes and ur warm smile and kiss before u turn and left. Never could imagine it's our last. Couldn't hold back my tears and whenever i think of u and the last moment u left, i still cry. A moment ago i was looking at pictures of u in my facebook, i really wish u were still here.

Its 2 years. Many things happened, many things changed. However, never my love for u. I've met many people and some good men crossed my path. But i still couldn't let go of u. I will always do comparisons between u and them and whenever i passed by places where we've been before or the similar things that we've done together. I still miss u very much. Many of my close friends cared for me and advised me not to close my doors to others. I still couldn't and i don't think i ever will accept another person in my life.

the time we've been together was really short. everything happened so fast. from the day we met, to the happy days we shared, to our marriage to having a baby. I really thank god that i've found u. I never reget choosing u. And i know u love me too . I've heard stories from mother and from your friends about how much u love me and how proud u r to be a hubby and a daddy.

i am trying very hard to be happy. Many times, i felt really shitty. but i just got to hide my feelings in front of everybody. I'm not a attention seeker. I just want everyone to know, I AM OK!

Bella ... OMG she's 2!! Mother always tell me how happy u were when u become daddy. She knows that u love Bella a lot. She means the whole world to me. Never fails to make me happy. Playful and naughty .. I'm sure u r watching her well in heaven.

tmr is ur 2nd year death anniversary. How time flies. It's scary. walking alone is never easy . Well, never a choice at all. i love u baby. thanks for watching us and keeping us safe. I love u always...