Dear lao gong
This day , 10 April 2009 , is a Good Friday . This is the day when we first met . It's not a love at first sight thingy .. But we just clicked. We have common interest .. pretty much the same type of character that we looked for in a relationship ..And many things happened. Life is unpredictable . Lots of sweet memories .. We laughed, we cried, we have small arguments, we celebrated, we enjoyed, we shared, we planned, we did loads of stuff together. But then, time is not enough. Fate left me a broken heart.
This day, when i met u, my whole life changed. U were the best and u gave me ur best. No deny to that. Though u can be playful and immatured sometimes, but u always put me as your number one priority. I'm really flattered. Thank you for giving me your all. U always tell me I am special and i'm so different from the others. U told me that i'm the one for u. I'm not sure what have i done that made u say this. I reciprocated. I've given my best and my all to you too. U've made me a happy woman ..
As what people always say, happy moment doesn't last forever. Well.. true enough it really doesn't. And happy moments are so short .. at least that's what i felt. I really envy my surrounding friends with a loving husband and watching their children grow up. And whenever i'm out, I was jealous when i see happy families. I really don't understand why it is so unfair. All my life, i'm in pursuit of happiness. I've made it .. why can't i continue to be happy? Is life really that UNFAIR? I really hate myself and my life now...
I always love going out with u .. I love to go for walks , window shopping , browsing at stuff in the supermarket .. Since u have left, things changed. I don't really like to go out in the day. Cos' i really dread to see happy families and loving couple. They make me feel inferior. During my off days, I will stay at home to look after Bella. I hate going out to face the world. But i have no choice if i got to go to work. I will always look down or look outside the window. I guess i still need to take time to get used to going out without u..
Since u've left, i've changed. I used to be a happy go lucky person and cheerful person all the time. Now, i'm always moody. I still try my best to be the original me when i'm out with my friends. I laughed, i create jokes and i tried to act cute sometimes. My close friends will see the difference in me. They know i've tried very hard and they have given me encouragements. U r my antidote. Well.. i guess i will never be cured since the antidote is gone forever ... =(
1 comment:
Yes,it is true..life sometimes seem unfair.
Yes,it is true..no one in this world will be able to say they understand what you go through/how you feel.
You don't need to be so downcast.You have got Bella.. she got the looks of Vincent,er??
Time will not make you forget Vincent,or take the pain away. Time WILL make it more bearable,with each passing day.
Today,came upon a verse from the Bible. 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18
(Believers Who Have Died
13 Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. 14 For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. 15 According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. 18 Therefore encourage one another with these words.)
Look forward to the day that you will see Vincent in Heaven again. Just believe..
yes,if no one here on Earth can garantee that. But GOD,who created all things on Earth,couldn't?? HE can.HE will..only if you believe, just believe..
Patience, Sister.Yes,the path may be rough and,at times,it seems easier to give up..but you got to ask yourself if that is really what you want,for you and Bella..
How much you want to be with Vincent? The answer to that will be the moltivation to carry on believing that you will see him in Heaven again.
All Christians believe in this way too.We have no garantee,but we choose to believe.. Believe,and GOD will answer.
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